"A Goodbye and Celebration of What Might Have Been" or "Regret"

How heavy is the kiss goodbye,
For the distant friend,
To usher in the end.

A friend that could have been,
One step closer,
A quaint composer.

Perhaps in her stead,
I'll find solace here,
In the depths of my head,
With my memories dear,

And in fantasies sleep,
Through dreams without end,
That the friend I can't keep,
Is not
On whom
I depend.