And This is How I'll End

So the question remains
Like a tuneless melody
Two bars of a dull refrain
Echo over the brazen
Toy soldier that is my life.

I can't feel pain
No, no.
I can't feel love
I only know
Godless,
Soulless,
Heartless,
Indecision.

God why does this happen to me?
Freedom.
My claim becomes my claimant,
Binding me with
Shackles of virtue.

"Do these things"
So I take my medicine,
Down goes the dose
To join the rest of my stomach in
Unsettled anticipation.

I keep waiting for life to happen
And it keeps passing me by
I know I'll only live once
But I'm too scared to die

And I can't rewind the movie
This reel goes only one way
What a horrible box to be shoved into
My cell of cardboard feelings.

So yeah,

Happy birthday anyway.